Make your Lover God the focal point of your search for security. In your private thoughts, you are still trying to order your world so that it is predictable and feels safe. Not only is this an impossible goal, but it is also counterproductive to spiritual growth. When your private world feels unsteady and you grip His hand for support, you are living in conscious dependence on Him.
Instead of yearning for a problem free life, rejoice that trouble can highlight your awareness of “Shared Love.” In the darkness of adversity, you are able to see more clearly His love of you. Accept the value of challenges in this life, considering the Peace you are also receiving. Remember that you have an eternity of love awaiting you in heaven.